Time Line During Hydrogen Sulfide

12/16/02        Worried about money. Major pain in right leg woke me about
4a.m. Unable to kill pain with aspirin, or go back to sleep. Hands kept falling
asleep. Wheezing, loud. Took cough medicine. Finally went back to sleep.
Morning, hands falling asleep: hard to use mouse.

12/17/02        Worried about money. Have to make it to Feb. (w/o credit
dings) to refinance. Couldn’t sleep: woke every 1½ to 2 hours, having to pee.
Wheezing. Headache this morning. Nose bleeds. Feet went numb, felt like I
was falling: three times at home, then twice while I was out, where with the
snow I almost did fall. Walking for a couple of blocks, I was weaving
over the course of a quarter of a block. If I’d concentrated, could I have
walked straight.         Headache again, worse. Just had B12 shot a week ago.
Wonder if one now would help.

12/18/02        Hands asleep, woke me. Kept moving them to make the feeling
come back. Took a long time. Wheezing. During day didn’t go anyplace I had
to walk. Felt depressed.

12/20/02        Left hand kept being asleep during night. Woke me. Wheezing.
Front part of my feet tingling, early afternoon. Later whole left foot and ankle
tingled, really uncomfortable. Then, exercising, couldn’t fill lungs very far.
Chest felt tight. 4:00 p.m. B12 shot.

12/21/02        Went to sleep:11:30 p.m. Up every 1 1/2 hours to pee. 4:00 a.
m. my right thigh ached too much to sleep. Wheezing, but not at loud as other
nights. Got up, 5:00 a.m. Later was really tired. Napped. When on net, could
not remember things I wanted to tell people. Frustrating. Depressed: don’t
have money for stamps: need to write letters. But put up Christmas lights.

12/23/02        Kept waking up having to pee. Check in the mail from Delta,
refunding $465. Whew. I can pay bills. Out on errands: Albertson’s, etc. had
three episodes of feet numb, felt like falling.

12/24/02        Kept waking, having to pee. Hands and feet not falling asleep
nearly as much.

12/25/02        Kept waking: pee. Right thigh hurt while I was standing,
preparing turkey. Later, thigh burned, but not as badly as in past.

12/26/02        Kept waking: pee. Some wheezing. Left hand falling asleep. At
3a.m. could not go back to sleep. I wish I had a way of checking my B12
level. Bottoms of feet feel so pins and needles, they feel spongy when I walk.

12/28/02        Kept waking: pee. Some wheezing. Slept about 6 hrs. Hands
falling asleep.

12/29/02        Kept waking: pee. Wheezing. 6 hr. sleep, total. Nose bleed a.m.
Left foot all pins/needles, long periods of time. Right thigh hurts. Haven’t
taken B12 shot because of tiny red spots on thighs, which are a bit like when
thousands of tiny blood vessels would break under my skin. I think it’s from
picking at bumps, but I can’t remember. Memory problem, disconcerting.

12/30/02        Kept waking: pee, felt like I wasn’t going to make it. Worried: if
I get a cough/flu, I’ll have to wear pads. Right thigh hurts, especially when
standing. Have to stand on left leg. Hands falling asleep. B12 shot. Glass of
wine w/dinner. Think about Grandpa G. saying it was good for the blood.

12/31/02        Woke every 2 hr: pee, then slept 3 to 6:30 a.m. Felt great about
that. Did wine help? But hard getting to bathroom w/o accident. Hands not
asleep. Left foot still prickly/spongy. Right thigh not painful. No blood when I
blow nose. Glass of wine w/ dinner. (Despite “scary” papers from Patrick
Casey, I feel good.) Notice moons coming back on my thumbs.

1/1/03        Frequent waking: pee, urgent. Left fingers asleep. No 3½ hr
continuous sleep. Sharp pain, left leg, below knee woke me; left w/stretching;
grateful no urgency to pee; got up 45 min later. Blew nose, no blood on tissue.
Exercise/Physical Therapy: 14 min.

1/02/03        Frequent waking: pee, urgent. Woke early, couldn’t go back to
sleep. Called Croix: could he pay his part of rent early, for $25 off. Yes. He
brought money early afternoon. Bank; K-Mart, took La Familia records with
highlighting to Dr. Baten’s. Had 2 episodes of feet going numb, feeling I
would fall. But not as bad as sometimes, no arm flailing, to keep balance.

1/3/03        Frequent waking: pee, urgent. Sharp pain, left leg, below knee.
Woke me. Called Sally Stabler, U of Colorado, Health Sciences, Denver. Was
able to speak with her for half an hour. Very excited thereafter. Went, bought
Thank You card.

1/4/03        Awake till early a.m. Then, slept w/frequent waking, etc. Sharp
pain, left leg, etc. Got enough rest by sleeping late. Mailed card. Right thigh
burns/hurts. Exercise/Physical Therapy: 15 min.

1/5/03        Frequent waking, etc. Right thigh painful: hard to stand, make
copies, Office D.
Exercise/Physical Therapy: 15 min.

1/6/03        Frequent waking, etc. At 5, major wheezing, couldn’t go back to
sleep.

1/7/03        Frequent waking, etc. During day, feel depressed. Could be worry
re money. Having pd Croix $25 to pay rent early, I’m $25 short for things I
need. Checks I was afraid would go through before he pd, hence my need to
ask him to pay early, haven’t gone through. Should I have been more trusting,
or was it good that I reduced stress for several days, and he got extra money.
Afternoon: Dr. Baten says he will be treating physician witness. Says, in a nice
way, I’m not behaving like any attorney he’s ever worked with. (Said this
before during City case.) Actually, I feel relieved, remember fed judge at
Lamplighter telling me about pro se         before him, who won w/ jury.
Exercise/Physical Therapy: 15 min.

1/8/03        Frequent waking, etc. Getting period, had not thought I would
ever see it again. Wonder if my B12 is low again. Write Thank You to Dr.
Baten and Dr. Schulhofer. Deliver both. B12 shot, late afternoon.
Exercise/Physical Therapy: 15 min.

1/9/03        Frequent waking, etc. More period. Lunch w/Linda @ Manana,
her treat. Filed Motion for Clarification: Appeals Ct.; Motion re false
Certification, Casey, District Ct. Felt good about accomplishments. Have $25
more than I thought. Whew. Feeling peaceful

1/10/03        Frequent waking, etc. Up at 5:30: could not go back to sleep.
Period gone. e-mail from Dusty says computer is on its way. Wow.

(Computer : Hard Drive Fail: stops working altogether. One from Dusty
arrives several days later. No docs from failed hard drive. Get docs mid-
March when new hard drive goes in.)

4/15/03        Woke early a.m., could not sleep; walking: Office Depot,
Wal*Mart, grocery, feet went numb three times, felt like I was falling, made
me anxious; breathing difficult several times. Exercise machine.

4/16/03        Headache upon waking: several aspirin, still have it. Feet when
numb, felt as if falling, twice. Made me feel insecure on my feet.

4/17/03        Woke early a.m., could not sleep. Really worried about Judge
Hall. Hard work for nothing if he just always decides against me. Also, harder
to think when there are so many worries.

4/19/03        Hard to breath, almost all day. Chest tight. No itchy eyes. No
wheezing. Still having hard time doing motions for Judge Hall, feel hopeless.
Now, it’s night, and I’m still feeling really tight in my chest. With no hay-fever
symptoms. My chest almost hurts. (dull hurt)

4/21/03        Woken by pain in my legs – ran out of aspirin (Saturday, and
yesterday was Easter.) Tired, only able to sleep six hours.

4/23/03        Pretty much pain: legs, back. Take lots of little (81 gm) aspirin.
Notice my chest is less tight.

4/24/03        Not as much pain early a.m. (4a.m.) in leg bones as has been
recently, but right thigh has sun burned feeling. I wonder if it has to do with
the stress from my credit report problems, and the stress last week of feeling it
was hopeless to go on in court, because of Judge Hall appearing to not like
me. Bowel problems… too loose, hard to control. Hands falling asleep during
day. Chest not as tight. I took a lot of 81 mg aspirin before going to sleep for
night.

4/25/03        Pain in legs did not wake me. Wheezing early a.m. But what
woke me was hands
being so asleep I couldn’t get them to stop tingling, even w/lots of movement.
Wal*Mart, in parking lot and store, feet went numb, felt like I was falling.
Also, hard to walk straight line. Evening: chest tight, hard to breath.

4/26/03        Phone woke me this morning: quickly got up to answer and
couldn’t hold pee. It had only been two hours since the last time I’d peed.
Feet tingly.

4/27/03        Woke around 4 a.m. Wheezing so loud I couldn’t go back to
sleep. Coffee, per some book, works same as inhaler: breathing is better with
coffee. Bowel incontinence: wonder if I should try to be constipated. Hands
tingle. Right thigh burns so much, for so long, it aches.
Bath before going to bed; 2 melatonin, instead of one, and Valerian. Feet keep
me awake,         especially left: tingling is turning to burning. Very
uncomfortable. Worry about mobility.

4/28/03        Woke every 2.5 hours: pee. Once almost crashed into wall, had
to stop to turn toward bathroom. Slept till almost 7. Left foot tingling. This p.
m. went to Albertson’s: left foot felt spongy; I felt as if I were falling several
times; would have given up trying to buy things I needed, except could use
shopping cart for support. Hours later foot still feels uncomfortable.

4/29/03         Lots of hair falling out, early a.m. Major headache. Hands
asleep. Afternoon: closed on equity line of credit. It will be a relief not to have
to worry about $ all the time. Still, today: chest tight, shallow breath,
coughing: I think to try to fill lungs. Feet went numb going into Albertson’s,
and again on way out. It’s most scary when I don’t have hold of a shopping
cart.
On the way out, since I only had four light things, I didn’t take the cart. But
when I was         going up the curb by my car, my foot went numb and I fell
back. I caught my balance, but felt scared. May be time for a B12 shot.

4/30/03        Woke too early despite bath, melatonin, valerian last night. Right
thigh uncomfortable. Left foot continues to feel sort of the way my hands
used to feel when I had walked home from school in Wisconsin and they were
so cold that standing next to the radiator to warm them didn’t feel lovely, but
hurt as feeling came back. B12 Shot, a.m.

5/2/03        Woke up with image of Full House of Aces and Eights in my
mind. Then, Mario couldn’t come because of flat tires; computer didn’t get
fixed, though they said it would; the hole
wouldn’t stay covered; the sides of the hole fell in, making it even harder to
cover any of it; my gold card was 0 balance, when it should have had several
dollars available; AOL either over charged me, or didn’t put the right amount
on my bill at “Billing”. Right thigh hurt a lot today, sunburned feeling: at
Dillard’s where I was looking, I had to sit down for awhile when the pain
became too intense to handle. On the good side, I exercised for 10 minutes.

5/5/03        Chest tight, hard to breath. Called health department re outhouse
hole and gases. They said to get VOC tests. (Volatile Organic Compounds.)
Michael Curtis is therefore coming on Friday. Need to close up house prior.
Nervous about what my breath problem may be, and about getting
continuance. Feet constantly going numb while I was out today: at least a half
dozen times. Made me want to go home and watch telly, and never leave the
house again. Right thigh hurting, but numb to the touch. PM: left foot tingly:
uncomfortable.

5/13/03        Really bad sensation of falling episode in Albertson’s: even after
I realized it was my foot, in this case my left foot, I still felt as if it was giving
out under me, it felt pins and needles and smooshy at the same time. Very
distressing feeling. Glad I had a cart to support me.

5/14/03        Foot went tingly numb in Albertson’s, also at home in kitchen,
but not as intensely. Left foot feels weird almost all the time, tingly. Sore
throat today, think it’s from getting up too early, along with irritation from HS
(hydrogen sulfide.) Chest still tight.

5/15/03        Not much wheezing this a.m. (Fan has been on for many days
now. And door is open all day when I am home. Lots of wind, feel as if air is
being cleaned out, inside.

5/16/03        Some wheezing early a.m. Leg pain woke me up. Took aspirin,
went back to sleep, got 7 hr. altogether. Air feels fresher in here, after wind
yesterday. Still have fan on all the time.

5/17/03        Numb foot, falling sensation in kitchen.

5/18/03        Trouble w/memory while talking with neighbor who’s building.
Kept getting names mixed up. I made a joke of it and they laughed.

5/23/03        P.M. light off, bumped into bed, had to hold on to it to navigate
around it, else, felt like I would fall.

5/24/03        Left foot tingling intensely.

5/26/03        Hands very numb during the night. So uncomfortable it woke me.

5/27/03        Bumped into doorway during the night. Chest really tight,
wheezing when I awoke this a.m. Some coughing. This afternoon I bumped
into the doorway going outside.

6/6/03        At the condo about 4 hours. Before I was leaving my forehead
began to swell and the inside of my mouth felt uncomfortable.

6/7/03        Bridge of nose swollen. Puffy around eyes. Mouth feels really
swollen and gums are bleeding along their sides – metallic taste. Feet very
swollen. Get some lung and deep health soft gels from Herbs Etc. and aloe
vera juice and green tea. Isn’t helping a lot, but I feel as if I tried.

6/8/03        Mouth still irritated. Eyes still puffy. Forehead not quite so
swollen. Feet swollen.

6/9/03        Still can’t taste properly because of metal taste. But my gums and
inside of my lips and my tongue don’t feel as swollen.

6/14/03        Gums irritated and swollen after going to condo around 2.
Christopher Alba was there with Dimitrio, I was surprised because he was
supposed to call me after he met with him at 11. Also, they had put up what
looked like an expensive barrier. The wood looked like an awfully good grade
to use for a barrier. I said I was upset. I took several deep breathes in
order to sort of steel myself to tell him I was upset he didn’t call. I think it
must have been the deep breaths that caused the irritation. Then later my feet
were really swollen again. I got epsom salts and soaked and the swelling went
down.

6/15/03        Wheezing early a.m. Mouth feels better than on other recent
occasions when it was irritated... the inside of my upper lip still feels swollen,
but not as much as on other
days after being by the pit.

6/18/03        Changed rooms today at hotel. Window open for fresh air.
Mouth began tingling/burning, tongue began to feel as if it were swelling, and
forehead felt swollen. Looked out window and there are two pipes sticking out
of the ground that look like clean outs except neither is capped. Dean at the
front desk went to look at them with me, and at my request later took some
black plastic and rubber bands and covered each one. This evening my Epsom
soak didn’t leave me feeling quite as freshened as last night, so I wonder if the
pipes are clean outs. Certainly they smelled like the smell at my house, but it
wasn’t a rotten egg smell, it was a sickly sweet kind of smell. Need to check
that out on the web. Saw Dr. Baten today. He said there is something medical
that is like when my feet feel so peculiar. I asked him if other people were
upset by it, or if it was only me, and he said, of course if you feel like you’re
going to fall on your face. His voice was emphatic. Not happy about this being
something medical. But glad that finally someone isn’t denying it, like Lori and
all at Rodeo Family who said they’d never heard of anything like it.

7/3/03        Nose bleed. Major pain in my chest when I want to go to sleep.
Take several sm. Aspirin.

7/4/03        Nose bleed. Major pain in chest, but not exactly at sternum.
Mouth and feet still swollen.

7/5/03        Nose bleed. B12 Shot. Epsom salts soak, to hopefully get rid of
some more hydrogen sulfide toxins. Mouth still swollen, especially upper lip,
inside mouth. Feet swollen, too.

7/6/03         So far, no nose bleed.... Also, hands not falling asleep. Epsom
salts soak, hoping to get rid of more hydrogen sulfide toxins. Mouth still
swollen, and feet...

7/7/03          Again, no nose bleed.

7/16/03        Shower: only cold water. B12 shot.

7/21/03        Fell back against my night stand when I got up to go to the
bathroom last night. I scrapped and bruised my left elbow. I almost fell again
in the bathroom. Very scared.

7/22/03        Felt scared at night when I had to get up to go to the bathroom.
Made sure I held the wall.

7/23/03        Shower: cold water; decided it was character building. B12 Shot.

7/24/03        Another cold shower, felt I needed more character building.

7/25/03        Pretty much wheezing last night, early a.m. Had a horrible dream
about soldiers in my house with guns, I was very terrified in the dream, and
the men in the dream were in fear for their lives. In my dream we hadn’t done
anything wrong, but were targeted for some reason only
known to the soldiers. It left me uneasy all day.

7/26/03        Wheezing night/early a.m.

7/27/03        Melatonin to sleep. My sleep was so intermittent due to the
wheezing. I couldn’t sleep after about 4 a.m. and got up somewhat after 5 a.
m. Having gone to sleep at midnight (I went to bed before 11, but the
melatonin didn’t put me straight to sleep) getting up around five doesn’t make
for enough sleep. Also, much worry about money and the refusal of the condo
association to pay their share of the outhouse pit remedy costs. Very worrying.

7/30/03        Dalmane to sleep. Wheezing during the night/early a.m.

7/31/03        Melatonin to sleep. Wheezing during the night/early a.m. Going
to the bathroom during the night: afraid of falling. B12 shot. Worried about
mortgage payments. Sore throat.

8/1/03        Money situation very scary and stressful. Kept waking during the
night. Up way too early, go back to sleep, Mario calls about 8:30 and wakes
me. He lends me $50. In the afternoon, I stretch at computer and toes touch
the wall, feel as if they go right into it... I look to see if for some reason the
wall board got wet, but it was just the way my feet feel. Melatonin to sleep.

8/2/03        Wheezing early a.m. -- typical unless I take the Dalmane. Work
some on Attorney General check thing. Read statutes that apply. It looks as if
I am exempt. Take Dalmane pm, need sleep. Need to complete and send out.
Also need to check other computer for letter I sent Sherry Weinstein about
Dean’s bad checks...

8/3/03        Wake rested. Spend the day playing Tumble Bees on Pogo, with
the idea of improving my recall for words a la advice from Mary Cohen,
speech therapist who is helping me relearn some things and to compensate to
make my life work better. She says I can actually grow new brain cells when I
learn a new (old skills lost via my brain damage from the untreated B12
malabsorption illness) skills, and that they will help me function better....

8/4/03        Woke a little after 4 a.m., could not go back to sleep. Lots of
wheezing. Got up, made toast and coffee, and played Tumble Bees, hoping
that my word recall improves. Went back to sleep around 7 a.m. John Huddy,
Alb. Journal North, called about 11 a.m. for number of people to interview to
do story. Around 1:30 p.m. they are pumping the porta-potty next door. I
wonder if that will reduce the wheezing early tomorrow morning... Not
looking forward to cold shower. Wish I had the money to fix hot water heater.
Dalmane to sleep.

8/5/03        Slept all night. Not aware of wheezing, maybe small amount this a.
m. But slept till after 7. Feel rested.

8/10/03        Very bothersome wheezing for several hours early a.m. Could
not sleep soundly. Did not go to Wal*Mart, just could not face having to take
things back to get the money to buy a bit of food. I had some rice here, so I
cooked it with a bit of garlic salt.

8/11/03        Kept waking up. Some wheezing, not like before, though, not so
loud. Very limited food: I had left over brown rice for breakfast, but without
any protein it wasn’t very filling. Around 1:30 p.m. they pumped the porta-
potty. My mouth swelled, around my gums and the inside of my lips. Also I
was coughing and my chest felt tight.

8/12/03        Far less wheezing last night. I slept much better.

8/14/03        Felt like I was falling, going into Albertson’s. Came home and
gave myself a B12 shot. Got the medical records from Alice Sisneros.

8/15/03        Wheezing this a.m. Could not sleep because of it. Got up, but
was very tired and never really felt good all day. Also, hard to breath during
the day.

9/14/03        Bad nose bleed during night, got blood all over my night dress,
ran to bathroom for tissue, got blood on rug...

9/15/03        B12 shot

9/16/03        Another nose bleed at night. Not as bad, stopped sooner.

9/17/03        Phone not working in the afternoon. Too depressed to drive
anywhere to make calls. Afraid I’d have an accident. It’s really oppressive
that the street is being dug up and the sewer worked on at a cost of $5,200 or
more, when they haven’t paid one single penny for the outhouse pit.

9/18/03        Very saddened about foreclosure notices. Scared. Distressed.
Especially distressed that Hunt, Deal and Two Crow immediately spent
$5,200 for their problem, but have not paid one cent toward the outhouse pit.
Turns out that plumber guys broke phone cable yesterday.

9/19/03        B12 Shot, hoping it will help me from feeling so depressed about
situation here with Hunt, etc., and with extreme pressure regarding money. I
should go to Salvation Army for help with electric bill.

9/20/03        Woke up to go to the bathroom. Wheezing badly when I got
back to bed. Could not sleep because of wheezing and tight chest, even
though I’d taken a Dalmane to sleep only 4 hours earlier. Afraid I’m going to
get another nose bleed. Up at 3:54 to see if tightness gets better if I have a cup
of coffee and sit up for awhile. Wonder if David Pike did see to it that porta-
potty was cleaned yesterday. So tired at 9p.m. that I was almost immobile
from fatigue. Did a few things, went to bed about 10:30.

9/21/03        Coughing during the night. Hard to breathe. Woke up when I
thought someone was knocking on door. Went back to bed, slept till noon.
Wonder why I was so tired. Still coughing, but not as much. 10:30 p.m. I am
so tired again. I feel exhausted. Small nose bleed just before I went to sleep.
Not the gusher like last week.

9/22/03        Small nosebleed this a.m. Woke exhausted. Had to go and beg
for money for my electric today. Lots of places were out of money... I was
lucky that St. Vincent De Paul was able to help. Also almost everyone was
amazed at how low my bills were, I explained that it’s because I don’t have
hot water. I was drained after that. But very grateful. I wish I had money for
vitamins. I think I feel better when I have vitamins.

9/24/03        Ball of my left foot is really numb. Also, my toes seem stiffer,
whereas they had seemed to be getting more mobility. Bumped into doorway
at home this afternoon. Stumbled against wall while cleaning at Vereda. B12
Shot, p.m.

9/25/03        Mouth swelling after I took pictures of hole with Sole’s pipes in
it. Took photo of pipe where cement was used as sole coupling... Also, there
were no roots in the pipe, so it was not my tree that was making the problem.
Small pipe was funneled into larger, then cement was used as seal. No
actually, the Cartwright’s guy was wrong. They used the old pipe, that was
vacated, the one with the cleanout near the sidewalk, which they had already
said wasn’t being used...

10/1/03        Have to organize receipts. Really hard to do. Keep getting
confused. Takes me most of the day. I try to use what Mary Cohen taught
me, regarding making piles and then trusting they will be right when I
converge them. It helped. But it was still hard.

10/2/03        Work on receipts; made copies at Office Depot, used Mary
Cohen’s suggestions, which helped significantly; take them to Mark Oswald,
Alb. Journal North, late afternoon.

10/3/03        Took receipts, totaling almost $12,000, to Accent Property
Management. Was supposed to hear from her, but though I called several
times, she didn’t call me. Late afternoon, when I called her, she said that she’
d tried to reach Dorie but she was out. I called the gallery and someone who
said her name was Roberta said Dorie was there, could she give her my name.
I was on hold for a pretty long time, then the woman said Dorie was with a
customer and could she call me back. I asked that she call Accent Property
Management. Used top coat sealer at Vereda and saw that it was dull. I read
the blurb on the label and realized I’d used the wrong can first. I told Mario
and he said I’d talked about that on Wednesday. I could not remember that at
all. I felt as if I’d just discovered it. Almost fell on saltillo at Vereda when I
stepped from wet carpet onto the shinny, newly sealed saltillo. It felt like
when my feet go numb and I feel like I’m falling, my reaction was the same,
to sort of flail and try to keep my balance. I didn’t fall, but I was scared.
Keeping my balance seemed a lot harder than when my feet didn’t ever go
numb.

10/4/03        Woke during the night, trouble breathing.

10/5/03        Woke about 4 a.m., trouble breathing. Got up when I couldn’t
go back to sleep. After coffee and a few hours I was able to go back to sleep.
In the afternoon, that “can’t feel the floor feeling again,” but at home.
Bumping into doorways, as usual.

10/6/03        Woke around 4 a.m.: hard to breath. Tried to go back to sleep
but could not, too much trouble breathing. Got up, had coffee, read email.
Around 7 went back to bed, fell asleep. Mario called and woke me at 8. When
I didn’t answer he kept calling at ten minute intervals. I finally got up and
answered. After that I tried to go back to sleep but could not. Eyes burn.
Body feels bad, Just exhausted. Lots of coughing. Took me over an hour to
find a copy of the Affidavit he wanted a copy of. L&L come and pump porta
potty. Clearly they have not been doing it on Fridays. Went to talk to driver,
trying to keep him here till David Pike from City came, (I’d called him) but
my mouth began to swell and I had to go away from truck. Driver said his
name was Victor. Pike said he’d come over, but I never heard from him, nor
did I see him next door. I wrote with my complaint to City Manager and Pike,
and copied to mayor. Feet go numb: can’t feel the ground. Nose bleed. Feel
over tired. Hands shaking. Also, very worried about not being able to cover
mortgage check. If I can’t cover it, it will cause a 60 days late on my credit
report, which lasts with bad effects for a year. Call lawyers for New Mexican
and try to settle, but can’t remember what I meant to say... They do not call
back.
Call Jack Hardwick, he does not call back. Mouth still swollen at 10 p.m.
Teeth feel as if they are loose in my gums. Scary.

10/7/03        Hard to breathe during the night. Get up: coffee, play computer
games. Go back to bed at 7, sleep till 9:30. Can’t find the pages Jill Ryan gave
me to work on. Have looked and looked. I have no idea what I did with them.
Coughing. Mouth only a little swollen. My left foot went numb three times
this afternoon. The worst was when I was on the slippery marble going into
the PO.

10/10/03        Coughing really hard while seeing Mary. She gives me cough
lozenge. P.M.: Notice cracks between bricks in bedroom doorway.

10/11/03        Bricks in bedroom doorway appear to be sinking. Wonder if
there’s hydrogen sulfide coming up... Put fan on, blowing from bedroom
window toward living room.

10/12/03        Slept better, didn’t wake with wheezing. Did cough while
making coffee. Wonder if hydrogen sulfide is accumulating in living
room/kitchen.

10/13/03        Cough in bathroom and living room. Throat feels irritated. But
gets better when I stay in bedroom with windows open.

10/14        Could not sleep because of how cold it was from having to leave
the window open and a fan on to reduce the hydrogen sulfide, if that’s what
has been making me wheeze in the early a.m. and especially on weekends and
Mondays. Got up this morning shivering and cold to the bone. Very dizzy
standing in line to file at state district court. Had to hold on to door to steady
myself.

10/17        B12 Shot.

10/20/03        Forehead feels swollen, upper lip feels as if it has Novocain,
feel as if I’m trembling, but my hands don’t really seem to be moving when I
extend them and look at them, and I’m really dizzy. I was dizzy when I was
meeting with Mario this morning. By the time we went to Calle de Molina,
and we were on the back porch, I was feeling really dizzy and at one point
lost my balance against the wall. Because of the way my forehead feels,
which is like when the hydrogen sulfide poisoning was the worst, I wonder if
it’s from the hydrogen sulfide. Only my feet aren’t swollen, whereas that time
with the hydrogen sulfide my feet were major swollen. 8pm still not feeling
well. Forehead still feels swollen. Not dizzy as long as I’m sitting, though
during the news I felt as if the room were spinning, and I was sitting then.
Made me a little nauseous.

10/21/03        Turned on fan to extract from bathroom this morning while I
made coffee, and before I went in. Throat felt somewhat irritated in kitchen,
but not as bad as previously. Coughed some from irritation, but not horrible
coughing.

10/22/03        Went to the bathroom to pee at 3a.m. Coughing. Could not go
back to sleep. Felt as if heart was racing, felt scared as if there were a prowler
or someone trying to break in, only there was no one outside at all. Got up.
Feel very tired, hope to play a few computer games, then go back to sleep.
Went back to sleep about 7:30, but only slept about 45 minutes before I woke
coughing so badly that I couldn’t breathe: it felt as if my throat was irritated.
Then slept till Mario called at 11:20. Mario brought over water bottle and
estimate for final work. When I went outside when he was leaving, I bumped
into the gate. In the afternoon I was dizzy, but I didn’t do anything (activities),
and it didn’t get as bad as it was on Monday.

10/23/03        It’s 10:23 a.m. and I’m not dizzy, at least not yet. I did turn on
the bathroom extraction fan this morning before going in. And I opened the
front door almost immediately after I got up, so that there would be more
fresh air inside. I have on my fur coat, so it’s not uncomfortable, except that
the coat is a bit bulky. NM Pest Control just drove in. I am thinking I don’t
need that when my forehead is already feeling swollen and my tongue is
feeling prickly, though not as much as yesterday. Went and talked with pest
control guy, told him I couldn’t close my windows because of what appears to
be a second outhouse pit; I can’t close my windows to keep the spray out. He
said it was pyrethrum, and not harmful. I said I was familiar with the daisy,
and that I have had a reaction to it. I said that my forehead is swollen now,
and my gums; that I didn’t want my gums to bleed again. He said he was
waiting for Dorie Deal, who should be here in five minutes. It’s about 5 to
11, now. When Dorie arrived I went back and asked her not to spray out side.
At first she wasn’t cooperative, but then she agreed. I stood outside her wall
and waited to be sure no spraying was done outside. B12 Shot.

10/24/03        Yesterday in the afternoon I was exhausted. This afternoon I
feel not so tired. So I think the shot is helping. Also, I didn’t have a nose bleed
today.

10/25/03        It’s pretty late at night and I only just ate dinner. I find I am
now coughing quite a lot. So I wonder if it is from being in the kitchen where
there may be more hydrogen sulfide than in here where I can sit by and open
window and the fan is blowing any hydrogen sulfide there might be out of the
room and into the living room/kitchen... Actually, I noticed that I started
coughing this afternoon when I was on the phone in the living room...

10/26/03        Woke with a headache and feeling like I was trembling. When I
made my morning coffee and went to pick it up, I spilled it because my hand
was shaking. I think it’s the stress of worrying about money. I’m doing things,
so it’s not like I’m just sitting here feeling sorry for myself. But the pressure
appears to get to me anyway... Major cold this afternoon, despite wearing old
fur coat. Had to turn heat up, as I was desperately cold. Trouble breathing
when fireplace smoke comes in windows I have to have open because of
possible second outhouse pit. Cough, very irritated throat. Mouth swells.

10/27/03        Fireplace smoke, p.m. is really irritating to my throat. Gums
swell, cough. Feel very bad.

10/28/03        City calls (Cathy) and is threatening and scaring me about the
water at 2836 Vereda de Pueblo. I fall apart and start thinking of killing
myself. So distressed. She keeps saying they only shut the water off because
Grows specifically asked them to. Shaking. Feel very desperate. Call Jill Ryan
to make apt for next week, think I need support. Hands shaking when I do
blood test for blood type diet: I can’t control circles and mix the blood. Waste
of $15.20. B12 shot to see if that helps how depressed I feel. Very depressed
and upset. Trouble breathing because of fireplace smoke coming inside
through open bedroom windows. Cough a lot.

10/29/03        Almost spill morning coffee because I’m still shaking. Don’t
feel as bad as yesterday, afternoon after Cathy/City called, though. Sadly, the
water has not been turned back on at Calle de Molina, so there’s not much I
can do. If it were on, I think I would go there and see if that improved my
mouth and throat... (forehead not as swollen as it was, but upper lip still feels
full of Novocain. P.M when fireplace smoke started again, my mouth swelled
more than previously, so that the back of my mouth was swollen, and I was
worried that if my throat was the next thing to swell, I wouldn’t be able to
breathe. My teeth hurt when I bit on anything, and they felt as if they were
getting loose when my gums were very swollen. When I went to bed, I was
wheezing.

10/30/03        This morning there was blood in the phlegm in my throat... I
coughed for awhile. Very worried about tonight, and what the effect is on me
of this happening again and again. Made several phone calls. My mouth began
to swell (the phone is in line with the fan from my bedroom...) Then, walking
to the kitchen, my foot went numb and I grabbed for the kitchen counter.
Went to Dr. Fitzpatrick late this afternoon. She wrote me a prescription for a
pen to inject myself if the swelling began to close my throat. Also note to
water dept. to turn water back on at Calle de Molina. Being out of the house
the three hours I had to wait at her office reduced the swelling from this
afternoon.

10/31/03        Move to Calle de Molina. Mario helped me. Took only essential
things. Phone was connected. Water is supposed to be on by 5:00; on in the
afternoon. Furnace not on. Throat doesn’t swell this evening.

11/1/03        My mouth doesn’t feel as swollen; Gums beginning to look pink
again.

11/3/03        Decide to use electric stove top to heat, instead of forced air.

11/4/03        Begin writing letters: grandfather Kline’s birthday.

11/5/03        Woke up scared. Hands very numb. Thigh hurts and goes numb
when standing.

11/6/03        Woke up scared. Feet fall profoundly asleep, hard to get proper
feeling back into them. Smell smoke from a fireplace near here. Mouth swells.

11/7/03        Woke up scared. Mario for lunch: beans and rice with a tad of
mozzarella. He leaves $20 for me to get food and gas. I finish letters. Mean to
give myself a B12 shot, but it gets dark before I remember and I’m afraid to
do it in the dark in my bedroom. Since I usually do it while I’m reclining in
bed, I’m also afraid to try doing it while I’m on a chair in the living room...
Hands and feet still falling asleep. Thigh hurt a lot while I was standing and
talking to Mario before he left.

11/8/03        Woke up scared. My shoes are really loose today: my guess is
that my feet were swollen but not as swollen as this summer, so I didn’t
recognize it; forehead not swollen at all. Mouth feels good. Also, notice that I
haven’t spilt the Brita pitcher in several days: I was spilling it a lot, especially
at Manhattan, after I filled it and was trying to put it back on the counter; I
kept misjudging and hitting the side of the sink with it. Go to get some
groceries, post letters, and exchange cabbage seeds for kale seeds. Mouth
swells in car presumably from oil burning when it leaks and touches something
hot.

11/9/03        Work outside for several hours. Very hard to get myself to work
on court cases. Feel as if it is hopeless because of how Judge Hall seems to
feel about me. He’s never decided in my favor. In Johnson case he only gave
me half of what I showed was owed and he didn’t have Johnson pay me at all
for wrecking my car. He allowed the ex parte letter from Patrick Casey. I feel
as if all the work I do on these other cases is destined to be meaningless if he
just continues to do this. Decide to write to Marcie and ask her to ask Bob
what I should do. About 2 or 3 in the afternoon I remember that Judge Hall
explained about the reconsider. So it doesn’t seem as hopeless. Except that he
does seem to explain things for me, then still decide against me; but, less
worried. Mouth, forehead, feet not swollen. Feel best I’ve felt in a long time.
Remember to give myself B12 shot while there’s still light. About 6 hours later
I notice my left foot toes have more feeling and I am able to flex them more.

11/10/03        There’s a fly here that has been here for several days. At
Manhattan they always died within a day. Did not wake as scared today.

11/12/03        Hands very asleep.

11/13.03        Hands asleep. Feet hurt when they are waking up from being
asleep.

11/14/03        Feet hurt waking up from being asleep.

11/15/04        Hands asleep, especially left. B12 shot, but the really skinny
needles are hard to use, so I didn’t get quite the full amount; probably about
80% of it. It was the same last time, too.

11/16/03        Didn’t sleep well last night; Up many times to pee. But my feet
weren’t feeling weird, and so far today my hands haven’t fallen asleep. I
washed my purple velour house dress yesterday and today checked to see
how much fallen hair there was on it. The two previous times that I washed it,
it was covered in my hair from new hairs to long ones. Today there are less
than a dozen strands, though some of them are still the fine, new hairs.
Unfortunately I was spilling the Brita pitcher again today.

11/17/03        My feet are falling asleep today, so I’m wondering if this is
because of how scared I feel. Cuz I just had the B12 shot on Saturday... I
woke up feeling scared this morning.

11/18/03        Bad nose bleed.

11/26/03        Bad nose bleed.

11/27/03        Really sick, throwing up, after eating turkey which had been
discolored where gravy from broken gravy bag had been. I think I may have
been made sick by having put too much olive oil in, and there being too much
turkey fat on the parsnips when I ate them.

11/28/03        Had three small slices of turkey breast for lunch. Got sick again
some hours later. Didn’t eat anything else. Feet fall badly asleep, feel like frost
bite.

11/29/03        Called Smith’s and I can bring turkey back tomorrow when
Doug, regular manager, is there. Left foot is major asleep, hard to wake it.
Feels a bit like frost bite. Feet fall badly asleep.

11/30/03        Another nose bleed. I have to give myself a B12 shot today. I
just don’t like the little needles because it takes so long to push down the
plunger and I begin feeling weird. Plus, they are short and tend to leave black
and blue marks... but I can’t take them back... so...

12/1/03        Hands/Feet not falling asleep today.

12/2/03        Hands/Feet not falling asleep today.

12/4/03        Left foot felt like my hands used to feel after walking home from
school when I was a child in Wisconsin: when I stood with them over the
radiator at the bottom of the stairs, they hurt as they warmed up. It was very
uncomfortable: with my foot.

12/5/03        Checked bank balance and it was only $32.00. A check from
ages ago had gone through... for $125. I was so upset. But, it was also the
case that my vision became blurred. I did affirmations, and wrote to people
not to cash cheques I had given them. By the time I went to bed I was having
light nose bleeds.

12/6/03        B12 shot.

12/7/03        My left foot is doing that warming up after feeling frozen thing.
It is so uncomfortable. It’s warm in here, too, so it can’t be from the
temperature.

12/9/03        During bath found black and blue mark on my arm, so
apparently I’m still bumping into doorways hard enough to leave a mark. I
had thought I was better, though yesterday night when I was carrying Egypt, I
realized it was dangerous to go around a corner while holding her, since I
could bump into the doorway with enough force to leave a mark on myself,
much more so, her. Nose bleed – not as bad as ones in past... It came after I
was at the store and had a very hard time using the coupons I had because I
didn’t have any money. Several people were in line behind me, the line grew,
as the transaction took forever... It was very embarrassing. Later, at home, I
was so exhausted, and when I had the nose bleed, I wondered if it was from
having experienced so much stress. B12 Shot.

12/11/03        So far I seem to be doing better than yesterday: no weird
feeling in my left foot. Also, I slept for three hours at one point during the
night, which is twice as long as I usually am able to sleep at a go, without
having to get up and pee... to avoid an accident.

12/19/03        Nosebleed. Left foot asleep with feeling like very cold hands
warming over a radiator... almost painful; hard to wake it up.

12/21/03        Left foot profoundly asleep again. Need to give myself a B12
shot today..... B12 Shot

12/22/03        So far not falling asleep feet today and it’s afternoon.

1/3/04        Bad headache. Bad nosebleed

1/4/04         Toothache. Bad nosebleed; check to see how long it’s been since
B12 shot... longer than I remembered... B12 shot, and put a reminder in my
calendar.

1/5/04        Feeling much better today...

1/7/04        Headache. Teeth hurt. Bone in jaw hurts. B12 shot.

1/11/04        B12 shot.

4/12/04         Got up at 5:30. Sick this morning, very dizzy, threw up. Noise
in my ear is bad, but certainly not the worst it’s ever been. Went back to bed
around 7, slept till 10:30. Feet aren’t ticklish. I had nose bleeds two different
days recently; not as severe as the ones I was having. Neck hurts. Headache.
B12 shot. (Maybe this is why I was so cold yesterday. I thought it was that it
was cold outside, but now that I feel so sick, I wonder if being cold yesterday
is related.) I have chills now. Th area around the base of the toilet that I
thought I hadn’t sanded well enough, is actually wet, and where I thought the
kitty had peed on the tile, it’s really a yellow salt or something like the white
stuff that forms on stucco walls in the shape of the bricks the wall is made
from. There’s white stuff on the tiles, too. So maybe I got sick this weekend
when I didn’t have fresh air from outside coming in the open door, the way I
had during the warmer weather. Also maybe my ear noise is worse today
because my B12 is lower (given the less ticklish feet, headache). This
afternoon my neck hurt and I thought it was because of the noise in my ear
making me tense. But now (it’s 10 p.m.) all my muscles are hurting, especially
in my legs and back and hips and shoulders. So I wonder if my neck hurting
was a prelude to this, or if this has to do with the fact I think I let my
Farberware frying pan get too hot... because it smelled weird even though it
didn’t seem like it should have been too hot. May be the teflon is making me
hurt as if I have the flu, and maybe that’s why I had that feeling so often
during the months that I also had the shingles. Maybe I should get a new
frying pan... without teflon. Other foreclosure papers delivered.

4/14/04        Yesterday morning my feet were much more ticklish. But
yesterday evening they were not so ticklish any more. The noise in my right
ear was not as bad yesterday as it had been. This morning I had a minor nose
bleed. My feet aren’t very ticklish, and I have a bit of a headache. So, I think
I will have a B12 shot. The noise in my ear is not very bad, it’s about 6:20 a.
m. During the day I forgot about how my feet weren’t very ticklish. By news
this evening, I found my left foot simply wasn’t ticklish at all, so I
immediately went and got a B12 shot and gave it to myself. I had thought I
had a sore on my gum, by the implant that doesn’t have a socket anymore.
But when it hurt a lot to put my partial in to eat, I decided to soak my mouth
in salt water, so I did that for an hour an a half. I think there isn’t really a
sore, but that the there’s a large swollen area. I’m worried. But really this is
the same problem as I had in December, and I’ve made it this far, so I think,
hope, that it will be all right till I can work out the dentist thing through TBI. It
hurts even when I don’t have my partial in, but it’s not a real intense pain.

4/15/04        When I woke up my gum by that sore spot hurt like a dull ache.
But once I got busy I didn’t notice it so much. If I touch that part of my
cheek, though, the pain is rather sharper and then I can’t ignore it. My feet
were not very ticklish this morning... but at least I didn’t have cramps in my
feet and legs during the night last night. It was over the weekend that I was
having muscle cramps. The ringing is louder than yesterday. I had hoped that
after the B12 shot it would have been less intrusive. When I put my partial in
to go to UPS with the Farberware I’m returning that area of my mouth hurt so
bad that my eyes started tearing. I had to go to post and to UPS, so I just had
to stand the pain, but it was so bad that my neck got stiff and I got a headache
and my eyes kept tearing as if I were crying. I just wanted to scream. I didn’t
go to the grocery store, since obviously I can’t eat anything that requires
chewing. Luckily the man at UPS helped me fill in the form, since I just could
not work out how to do it because of the pain and my inability to figure the
lines out when the pain was taking my concentration away. Now it’s after the
news and I’ve noticed that my feet are even less ticklish. I took the implant
peg out and soaked my mouth with salt water for about an hour. The peg was
bloody when I took it out. 6:30 p.m. the noise is much louder now. I’m
feeling just totally exhausted and my eyes burn. I think the stress from the
pain is using up B12. B12 shot.

4/16/04        My right hip was too painful to sleep on last night. I can press on
my face above my swollen gums and it isn’t as painful as yesterday. I do
seem to have some sort of sores in my mouth, which may be from the
amount of salt I’ve had in my mouth the two days prior to this. 2 small nose
bleeds today.

4/17/04        My right hip wasn’t painful last night, but the bone between my
right knee and my right ankle was, and it kept me awake. I slept some,
intermittently. When I woke up, my right hand was profoundly asleep:
uncomfortable. I think I will have a B12 shot later, in the hope that eventually
the noise in my ear could go away if I had enough nerve sheathing for my
auditory nerve to my right ear. My gums don’t seem to be swollen or painful
at all today when I press on my right cheek above them. And the sores from
the salt seem to have gone away. If I weren’t so tired, I’d be pretty happy. I
hit my left thumb with a hammer while putting together the bookcase... and it
hardly hurt even though it turned black and blue right away. I’m a little
concerned that my nerves don’t work properly anymore. B12 shot in the
evening.

4/18/04        My feet seem to have considerably more feeling today. It is
much easier to flex my toes today. The noise in my ear isn’t as loud. I feel
better overall. (In the last 5 months, there hasn’t been a time when I felt
better, that the next day I didn’t feel like I had the flu. So, since I’m not
cooking with the Teflon anymore, I’m going to hope Teflon was the cause of
the flu symptoms, since when I was feeling better I tended to brown onions or
garlic for flavor in my food, and I also tended to forget for a moment and it
tended to get quite hot.)

4/19/04        Felt quite good today until I started to get really confused with
the foreclosure 3rd party complaint and summonses. Trouble talking to Judy
Kelly from Pre-Paid Legal: I couldn’t ask her what I wanted to ask because
there were so many things on my mind that they were competing for me to
talk about them... and in consequence I just couldn’t say anything. Finally I
had to tell her what was happening in my mind, and said that if I told her what
I didn’t want to tell her (about this process) that then I thought I could ask the
real questions. That worked fairly well. I went to the bank to get the
complaint notarized, got gas, and went to court and filed. Then I made some
copies at Office Depot. When I got home I realized that the noise in my ear
had gotten really loud. I was feeling like crying, too, because it had just been
so hard to do this simple task (filing the 3rd party complaint shouldn’t have
been that devastating). So I realized that I maybe should have a B12 shot. I
did that during the news, which has now finished, and I’m not feeling as
devastated though it’s only about an hour ago....

4/20/04        Feel overwhelmed today. Keep appointment with Alan Graham –
that’s good. He says he sees improvement in me. Nose bleed. Noise is
relatively loud today, but not as bad as sometimes.

4/21/04        Left leg bones so painful during the night I can’t sleep. My left
hand is profoundly asleep some of the time, too. When I get up, the noise isn’
t as bad as yesterday. Maybe if I have a shot later, my leg bones won’t hurt
tonight....

4/22/04        No pain in legs last night. Slept quite well except that telly
seemed really loud, so I turned it down. This morning, the noise in my right
ear seemed louder... so I don’t know if it’s because the telly was quieter and
in comparison it seemed louder, or if it’s louder because today is so stressful: I
have to file the Amended Third Party Complain in the Molina foreclosure.